ME, MySeLF n I…

heylo frens..finally da stressful moments end last thursday.. 10days is like 10 years.. seriously..i never felt that depressed.. my life is totally being control by certain people…n it’s proven that i can’t be ruled.. let me free..will ya..?? but i know.. i’m helpless.. can’t imagine..after 24years i lived..my family never controlled me n these 10days really tortured me.. y must they treated us like we are school children..?? come on… we are adults.. we know wut to do.. they always remind us to remain humble n yet..they are not humble at all.. all of them gile kuasa.. i know n i understand enuf that whateva they did to us is to train us to be more discipline..but then..they used da wrong approched.. they made us lose respect to them..n still..within these 10days..i met a lot of new frens..they are all merengsss like me.. so..after all..my life there was not that bad la kan.. e’tho i was assign to da kementerian that is not my preference at all..

during my 10days @ trganu..my mind was distracted wiv sms dat my bestfren (valiney..i guess i hv more than 1 bestfren…it shows that i’m adorable gurl maybe…hahaha) sent to me.. she had prob wiv her family.. da issue was heavy.. i know how tough she had to face it all alone.. i really pity her.. felt like crying pon ada… kesian sesgt kat dia.. i just pray to God to give her strength.. n alhamdulillah.. on 28/07/06.. she managed to convert.. n her new name is so beautiful.. Nur Zulaikha.. i still remembered..when we were in da primary school..she started asking me about Islam.. n slowly.. i explained to her.. n i still remembered when she asked my favor to buy for her a manual ‘cara2 sembahyang’..can’t describe how i felt da moment she sent sms n told me da news.. sebak sesgt.. terus nangis time tu.. after da tough times she has to went through it.. she finally a muslim.. this is da biggest and precious gift i ever received in my life..

ok la.. wanna chow.. to be continued..

heylo frens..erm..today i just did my medical check up this morning.. very da last minute tau aida ni.. esok dah nak gerak baru nak buat.. biasa la.. my heart is still 50/50..not 100% yet..dat’s y la cam ni..kalo la benda ni aku mmg minat gilerrrr…awal2 aku dah buat.. heheheh.. it’s a human nature.. by da way.. td time wat medical check up..doctor yg check aku tuh.. suspect i have problem wiv my heart.. this is because my pulse rate is very low.. aku pon dah cuak la kan.. siap tanya aku slalu pengsan ke tak… so..kena check my nadi 2-3 times.. pastuh..tak puas ati gak..gi plak wat ECG.. aiyo..aku dlm hati dah duk..dak..duk..dak..gak la kan.. biar btol kan.. e’tho my ECG results pon tunjuk yg pulse rate aku rendah..tp alhamdulillah tak de pape.. fuh…lega sket kan..

n today..i went 4 lunch wiv my krgkraf frens.. n b4 i sent them back to da office.. SHE on behalf of da others gave me a card..siap tampal gamba dierorg lagi.. really sweet la korang.. thank u so much.. MUACKSSSS to all.. n it makes me wanna cry… huhuhuu.. n to u she.. thanx for being my gud fren in karangkraf.. n i hope our friendship will last forever…cepat sket kawin makcik.. tak sabar aku nk tgk ko naik pelamin.. hehehehe…

erm..tik tok..tik..tok..as da time ticking without stop..i didn’t realize it’s been a year n a month i’m in karangkraf..a year dat really thought me of so many things.. friendship..teamwork..respect..love..futsal n many more.. it’s like a sweet n sour ere.. dat makes my life meaningful..

can’t imagine dat i’m leaving karangkraf..i’m going to miss all my frens ere.. but then again..i believe my decision is da best n yes..definitely it gonna change my life..i just hope i can suit in wiv my new place n new environment.

wuteva it is..Alhamdulillah..i pass da PTD interview.. going to start induction at Intan, Terengganu for 2 weeks n end of this month will report at ministry that they will inform me later..

can’t describe how i feel rite now.. it’s a mixed up feeling..happy..sad..blend together.. i wish..we will keep in touch..