ME, MySeLF n I…

pheww..after a week i entered intan.. this week dapat balik umah..seronok bangat seh.. after registration on monday..hv to packed our stuff n went to bukit cerakah for group integration.. dah lama tak gi camping.. excited pon ada gak.. i was in group 1.. dah lama gilerrr duk kat shah alam..ni la 1st time aku gi bukit cerakah..all this while.. i didn’t bother to go there.. yeeheee.. we had nite walk on da 1st nite.. aku ni tak tau la.. bila la malang tu nak ilang kan.. lepas kes tayar keta ilang.. malam wat nite walk aku plak kena gigit ngan ulat bulu.. e’tho dah pakai long sleeve still kena gak.. time tgh jln tu kan gelap.. so tak tau la apa yg buat tangan aku ni gatal gilerrrr kan.. biler dah sampai balik kat amphitheater n tgk tangan.. masyaAllah… dah bengkak gilerrr tangan aku.. terus tunjuk kat fasi kan.. n renjer kat situ cakap kena ulat bulu..terus dorang suruh aku tukar baju n sapu calomine lotion..(tak sure btol tak spelling aku).. mlm tu terpaksa la aku tido ngan tangan kat atas kepala kan n tak mandi. tension sesgt coz berlengas gilerr.. n thanx to elleney coz replace me utk ajk masakan.. da next morning..ingatkan dah ok..tp makin bengkak. so my ppk decided to bring me to clinic together with ida.. doc tgk pon terperanjat..i got 1 shot of injection n due to that.. aku punya la mengantuk tak bleh handle lagi.. balik memule tido dlm khemah tp panas gilerrr n pindah kat surau. mmg flat gilerrr la.. petang baru sedar..tu pon sebab orang nak sembahyang kan.. huhuh.. tp sampai sekarang ni gatal2 ada sket lagi la.. n terus jadi cam gelap sket skin aku.. huhu.. last friday i went 2 my aunty’s hse.. dorg sumer cakap aku nampak cam tak sihat n letih.. maybe sebab terperanjat tayar ilang tak ilang lagi..pastu kena plak ngan ulat bulu wat aku tak de mood.. sabar jek la aida.. k la.. sempena maal hijrah ni.. aku harap hidup kiter akan lebih diberkati n semoga dimurahkan rezeki.. aminnnnn….

13/1/07..ari last aku keje b4 gi kursus kat intan.. nothing much happened in da office. just packing my stuff n say goodbye to my officemates.. at night.. we had BBQ dinner. dah lama tak lepak2 ngan frens.. seronok sgt. actually nk celebrate bday chacha skali.. n alang2 m going to enter intan for 6 months.. n kinda hard to lepak wiv my giler2 girlsfriends later..so i really took this opportunity to hv fun. me n sha were da host of that nite.. we bought da stuff n marinated da chicken together. around 9.30pm..people were start coming. yg mana dah jadi mak buyung tuh.. makin besar perut masing2..tp betul la cakap orang.. muka org pregnant.. berseri2.. i wish zt n baiti selamat deliver da baby.. we changed stories.. alhamdulillah..everything went smoothly.. da last person left our house was fi. pastuh kemas2 n basuh pinggan.. penat sesangat.. tp lepas basuh pinggan tuh..sempat gak la tgk tv sat.. dlm kul 3.30am baru masuk tido.. n terlupa nak masukkan keta dalam umah.. n sedar2 da next morning, when sha n hubby nak gi perak.. they saw my tyres gone.. all of them.. keta aku elok jek atas batu-bata kan. sha woke me up.. bile aku kluar umah jek.. mmg speechless…blank n tak tau nak cakap apa.. nak nangis pon cam blurrrrr jap.. bile sha n hubby dah gerak pi ipoh.. baru la terpikir nak buat pe kan.. i tried to call my fren man.. can’t get through.. few times tried n i gave up.. i send sms pending.. then i called my dad n told him bout wut happened. time nak cerita tu baru la ada rasa nak meraung kan.. i can’t control myself at that time. tersedu2 nangis.. sport rim tu la hasil titik peluh aku sendiri.. mmg terasa sgt sedih.. ni kirenye my 1st loss la.. after that.. i tried sms few friends.. nak mintak tolong bawak pi balai to make police report n tgk kedai tayar.. nasib baik ada amir. thanks a lot amir sbb sanggup datang all da way from kajang n teman kan aku settle kan case ni.. n also thanks to man sbb temankan aku time dieorang pasang tayar baru.. e’tho ko lambat kan.. takut tau time duk umah tu sorang2.. of course la aku tgh ala2 trauma n fobia kan.. n of course thanks to abah sebab masukkan duit nak tukar tayar n sport rim baru.. tp kan.. i miss my old sport rim coz rasanya yg dulu lagi cantikkkkk… huhu!!! tp nak wat camner.. things happened. terpaksala redha kan. mesti ada hikmah kan… tp sapa2 yg rembat tayar aku tuh mmg mangkuk tingkat betol la.. rasa cam sangat kejam n kuang ajar tau pakai rembat jek. 1 ari nnt kena balik kat korang.. baru korang rasa… tp aku rasa.. mcm2 benda happened b4 aku masuk intan tau. mule2 muka n leher aku kena rashes.. then ada ulser dalam mulut.. ni tayar keta ilang lak.. waaaaaaa!!!!!!! sabar jek la aida.. insyaAllah.. ada hikmah.. (yeahh…ayat2 utk buat aku back to my sense).. n muacksss to suria coz sanggup datang from kl after she heard my case.. cam tau2 jek aku tak de mood nak makan sbb tgh sedih kan.. terus suria n hakim bawak pi dinner n made me laughing back.. lgpon dah lama tak jumpa hakim kan.. pastuh around 10.30pm..avi amek aku kat umah n bawak pi hartamas to chill wiv some of my ptd clans..met chacha there wiv eby n firdaus a.k.a kusut.. balik umah..dah rasa ok sket la coz dah bley gelak2 ngan member tadi kan..

n aku tak sedia lagi la nak pi 6 months course ni.. tak suka tau!!! starting last 4 days…my mood dah mereng balik.. got da same feeling when i have to go to terengganu 4 my 2 weeks induction.. mmg tak de mood. nak wat camner.. dah wajib kan.. huhuhu!! mintak2 la 6 bulan cepat sket berlalu kan.. heheh.. ok la.. wish me luck k!!!

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this will happen when i’m bored like hell… hehehe!!!

1.What does your Friendster Name Mean?
- da craziest of me.. =)

2. Your default photo:
- read da caption please… hehe

3. What does your headline mean?
- my shout out??  love needs time, patience, understanding n sacrifices…

4. What is your current relationship
status?
- single

5. Honestly, does your crush like you
back?
- yup..few of them..

6. What is your current mood?
- missing someone badly..

7. What do you love most?
- family n frens..nothing can replace them

8. What makes you most happy?
- makes my beloved people happy..

9. What’s your middle name?
- aida

10. If you could go back in time, and
change something, what would it be?
- let bygone be bygone.. do not ever regret ur past.. learn from it n improve it..

11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you be?
- of course a cat!! wild cat ya..

12. Ever have a near death experience?
-yups…

13. Name one thing you do a lot?
- talk..talk..talk..n talk..

14. What’s the name of the song that’s stuck in your head right now?
- perpisahan by anuar zain..

15. What does your name mean?
- cahaya keberuntungan.. mm..i like it.. hehe!

16. Name someone with the same b-day as you:
- yan n arin..

17. Whats the first word that comes to mind?
- ???

18. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
- yup..but in a group la.. hehe! choir team!

19. What is your favorite thing to do when your mad?
- silence n sport..

20. What’s the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
- da eyes!!! dari mata turun ke hati.. hahaha!

21. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
-my fav mocha n choc chip ice blended..

22. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
- no..

23. Ever had a drunken night?
- never in my life!

24. Whats the sweetest thing the opposite sex has done for you?
- sang a b’day song n record it into a cd.. such an effort!

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
- smtimes.. hehe!

26. Whats your fantasy?
- mm..takde kot..

27. Do you know who you’re going to marry?
- nope!

28. Name something funny that happened to you…?
- nothing..

29. Can you speak another language?
- yes..malay n english.. a lil bit of basic mandarin

30. What’s your favorite smell?
- salvatore ferragamo n nina ricci..

I wake in the dark

Showers of light

Moments of emptiness around

Floating away

No rays of hope

Reality brings me to the ground

What can I do?

What can I say?

I need a place to hide away

Just for a while, just for a smile

Just for the life I used to know

For every song was filled with words of love and not of anger

What if they go?

What if they leave me far behind?

‘Cause I don’t wanna be alone.. (uh oh)

Living life for on my own (uh oh)

I don’t want to live my life in isolation

Filled with empty decorations

‘Cause I wanna be with people that I know

Who would do the things I do (uh oh)

Making all my dreams come true (uh oh)

I don’t recognize the shadows at my door

Though I’ve seen them all before

Because the only thing I really want..

Is to be with you….

I look at the sky,

That looks back at me

I’m getting a silent melody

I know that I’m here

And I am lost

Alone and confusion by the breeze

Hiding my face, crying alone

I need to find my way back home

Back to the place

The wonderful days

Livin’ the life I used to know

For every smile was born out of the love and our sincerity

And every tear from all the glowing joy

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‘Cause I don’t wanna be alone.. (uh oh)

Living life for on my own (uh oh)

I don’t want to live my life in isolation

Filled with empty decorations

‘Cause I wanna be with people that I know

Who would do the things I do (uh oh)

Making all my dreams come true (uh oh)

I don’t recognize the shadows at my door

Though I’ve seen them all before

Because the only thing I really want..

Is to be with you….

Is to be with you

Living life for on my own (uh oh)

I don’t wanna live my life in isolation

Filled with empty decorations

‘Cause I wanna be with people that I know

Who would do the things I do (uh oh)

Making all my dreams come true (uh oh)

I don’t recognize the shadows at my door

Though I’ve seen them all before Because the only thing I really want..

Is to be with you….

Empty Decoration
by Decisive

happy new year 2007.. wish all my frens out there.. all da best 4 this year.. let us put all da bitter memories n bad experinces behind.. makes it as our guidance n a gud lesson in our journey of life.. 2006 was a year that taught me of so many things. a year that makes me more matured..n become a better person i guessed.. hehe.. n to u..who is always in my mind.. someone who is far away from me.. but very close in my heart.. i always pray for ur happiness. tho i remain silent..doesn’t mean i forget about u.. may God bless u..

n to u..Valiney Zulaikha… congratulations for ur new year baby.. m so happy for you..alhamdulillah.. u r a mom now.. a good start for u dear..