ME, MySeLF n I…

‘kalo pergi kuala kubu..tulis nama atas batu…’ still remembered this song..??? hehehe.. i juz came back from modul bomba..2 weeks in kuala kubu bharu a.k.a kkb.. was da tiring n suffering moment i ever gone through during dis dpa.. dunno y..maybe i was very worried to undergo da training even before we got there… so many reasons to list out but enuf said..i’m castrophobic. biasa la kat bomba ni.. face mask is a must in most activity. 1st time tried..almost made me wanna cry.. blom pape lagi dah rasa rimas n lemas.. i did da ba gallery without wearing it. mmg dah cuba tahan tapi rasa lemas sesgt. but whenever i wore it in kat tempat lapang such as at padang kawad.. i’m occay! da phobia will only come if i got to wear it in a dark place.. so..time buat sewer a.k.a terowong kecik.. baru turun tangga jek aku dah menggigil. terus rasa nak naik atas balik tp kena marah ngan pegawai kat sana.. but i knew they wanted me to try 1st.. so.. aku kuatkan semangat n merangkak la dlm sewer tuh.. smpi check point pertama.. aku dah rasa tak selesa.. when i reached da 2nd check point.. aku dah mintak nak kluar.. tp diaorang bagi semangat lagi utk aku try lagi sket.. terowong yg 2nd tu dah la gelap n mmg tak nampak pape. aku merangkak mmg laju gilerrr… dah tak hirau ba yg berat kt blakang aku… tangan sakit ke apa ker.. tolak tepi dulu.. smpi check point ke-3.. aku makin menggigil n terus cabut face mask..helmet n sarung tangan.. then.. diaorang pon tgk aku kronik semacam terus suruh aku kluar.. biler dapat duduk kat tepi.. aku terus nangis.. nangis sbb rasa cam dah nak mati n da most is.. i cried sbb sedih sangat tak dapat abis kan aktivity tu.. biler tgk kawan2 lain buat sampai abis.. rasa cam down sesgt.. i tried to overcome my phobia tp cam tk bley lagi.. mati idup balik aku takkan masuk lagi sewer yg gelap tuh.. tobat la kan.. tp for da rest activity.. i really enjoyed tho pinggang aku cam nak tercabut rasa kan.. makan painkiller tak tau la brapa kali.. tahan jek la.. kiterorg ada camping dalam hutan dkt2 situ la.. dlm tuh..kena buat kawad hos 100 kaki bawak hose..mmg berat nak mampos!!! but i’s so glad.. tho my group consists of 9 ladies n 6 guys (da most ladies in a group..) we managed to be da best group wiv da best time in our batch 1/2007.. we did it in 7.07mins.. mcm tak percaya pon ada gak.. overall.. aku happy dapat habiskan sumer modul luar wpon keadaan fizikal yg ala2 suam2 kuku ni kan.. skarang ni tgh tunggu time utk di scan jek.. n on 2nd june we will be off to tganu for program anak angkat.. sedey sangat celebrate ngan strangers kali ni. no family n no friends.. huhu!!!!

Okay this is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS… type what comes to your mind first whenever you hear these 50 words. Don’t think and don’t go back and change. Doesn’t matter how random just type it!

1. Beer: root beer float A&W..yummy!yummy!

2. Food: tom yam kung..

3. Relationships: erm..??? missing someone maybe!

4. Your CRUSH: quite far for a moment..

5. Power Rangers: mengarut..

6 Life: boring sbb tgh kursus..

7. The President: ??

8. Yummy : tido..

9. Cars: my lovely baby..MyVi

10. Movie: pirates of da carribean 3..can’t wait for it!

11. Halloween: pumpkin..

12. Sex: female la..100% k..

13. Religion: islam

14. Myspace: sama jek cam fster..tp tak slalu log in..

15. Fear: tempat yg sempit n gelap.. i’m castrophobic..

16. marriage: commitment..

17. Blondes: bimbo

18. SLIPPERS: utk bawak gi toilet..hahaha!!

19. SHOES: loves shoes.. primavera, scholl, nose.. n etc..etc..

20. Asians: unique

21: Past time: futsal..or lepaking wiv friends

22. One night stands: cheap!

23: Cell Phone: nokia

24: Smoke: tak suka..

25: FANTASY: jmp mr.right kat greeny garden.. hahaha!!

26: COLLEGE: byk sgt la..

27: Highschool Life: superb n unforgettable!!

28. Pyjamas: prefer cotton n satin…

29. stars: like it so much!

30. Fitness Center: fitness first

31. Alcohol: tiger

32. The word love: love la!

33. Friends: lots..especially my girlfriends..

34. Money: still not financial freedom..

35. Heartache: it’s painful

36. Time: 2pm

37. Divorce: mintak dijauhkan wei..

38. Dogs: my chinese horoscope..

39. Undies: colorful..hehe

40. Parents: miss them..huhu!

41. Babies: cutie..

42. Stripper: for pervert!

43. Blogs: got 1..saje bile bosan..

44. News: boring..

45. Weddings: erm..??? i like wedding but i’m afraid of marriage.. how??

46. Pizza: pizza hut

47. kleenex: tissue

48. accessories: normally bangles or bracelets.. love them..

49. make up: help u looks more presentable

50. mood: tak best sgt.. tak tau knapa..

huhuhu!!! dah seminggu aku demam on n off.. nak gi clinic cam tak sempat jek.. tp malas pon ada. tah la..aku ni sejak dulu lagi tak suka sgt gi clinic tu.. sampai aku sore throat thp dewa n ilang suara last friday kan.. after abis kitaorang nyer show.. tetiba gilerr aku nak balik jb. tp dsbbkan dah malam n dangerous la kalo aku balik dlm keadaan weng tu kan.. my friends advised me balik on sat morning jek… trus aku ternangis malam tuh.. tah la.. sedih sgt kot tak dapat balik mlm tu gak..maybe aku dah homesick + tgh demam panas lak tuh.. sti kawan2 aku cakap aku ni ngada2 n manja..arghhh!!! lantak la.. tak mati pon kalo stakat cakap camtuh kan.. sampai jb dlm kul 3pm..then malam tuh abah terus bawak pi clinic.. skali panas daaa badan aku.. tekak aku lak merah n kering sesgt.. cuaca skarang kan tak menentu. aku lak mmg fragile sket.. senang sgt kena demam. rimas pon ada.. terus dapat mc on monday.. best gak dapat lepak lama sket kat kg kan.. hehe.. then..tonite aku find out folder aku yg dlm pc kat umah ni gone coz my sis anta gi format..aku tak tau la org tu transfer kan ke tidak..nangis lagi.. bukan pe.. my fav assignments + my practical report n thesis are among my precious things. bukan senang nak buat tu sumer.. n who knows i might want to use it 1 day in da future kan.. n tak kisah la.. tu sumer kenangan aku time kat uitm kena perah otak segala bagai kan.. huhuhuh!!! tension tahap puaka dah ni.. tp nak tension lama2 pon can’t help me much.. benda dah gone.. my fav photos yg aku simpan slama ni pon tak de.. sabar jek la kan.. tetiba demam aku ni cam nak datang balik kan.. huarghhh!!!!!!!!!