ME, MySeLF n I…

adusss.. pagi ni baru aku tersedar yg aku dah spend byk 4 this coming raya.. ffuuuhh!!! alamak..tetiba nk pengsan. ahahha!! but, it’s ok.. aku ni kalo shopping bukan la every year kan.. ikut mood. cam last year tak de mood nk shopping, this year aku balun la.. lgpon bile shopping time mood tgh ting tong..n sengal..mmg la best..cam layan jek bile amek2 barang kan..hahaha!! n maybe next year aku rilekss lak. that’s me. terpaksalah aku ikat perut this year. hehe..

apa yg korang akan rasa bile kena buat benda yg korang tak suka..?? sure la lemau semacam kan. that’s wut happened to me. day by day.. aku rasa malasssss sgt nk pi ofis skang ni. kalo bukan sebab aku ada ofismate yg best..aku rasa mmg aku buat hal jugak kot. hehe.. tah la.. i like to do things that i like. kalo aku tak suka.. mmg susah aku nk perform. n kekadang tuh aku terpikir, kenapa la dorg ni tak letakkan pekerja tuh based on their interest n education bground.. rugi kan kalo dah blaja cam org gilerrrr at least for 5 years n yet u can’t utilize da knowledge that u have. n slowly..kiter sniri akan jd demotivated kan. mmg la akan ada certain people yg ckp..we hv to get out from our comfort zone.. we hv to do or try something else which is out of our area..well, i dun give a damn la. i’m not u n u r not me.. i am wut i am. but then again..welcome to da real world.. u won’t get everything u wish for.. kena la blaja menerima seadanya kan.. maybe dah rezeki aku kat sini n buat benda ni. i juz hope i can deliver da best tho i know till now i am not yet.

dah setahun aku keje kat sini..tak sempat nk fully master wat unit sblom ni, aku dah kena tukar unit lak. n tetiba pagi ni aku terpikir.. wut i want in this service..?? apa aku akan jadi in coming 5-10 years..?? b4 this..i do hv dreams..wut i wanna be..how am i going to get it.. but now.. i juz dunno. arrrggghhh!!!!! dah la tuh..dpt bos yg mmg suka mengampu..to me, if u r good..u dun hv to try so hard coz it will naturally comes out from u. it’s true that we hv to pleased our bosses..tp tak yah la smpi nk air cond.. got limit maa… tp biaq pi la…

nway..selamat hari raya aidil fitri.. i hv this kinda mix of feeling.. happy (of course la..), sedih sket..terharu..sebak..sume ada la.. 25 tahun hidup kat dunia ni…apa yg aku dah dapat..?? apa yg aku dah buat..?? erm..

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