ME, MySeLF n I…

akum..erm, tonite i’m back ere in shah alam. back to my life. back to my business.. hehe! after 2 weeks plus i’ve been resting in jb.. can’t wait to start anew day tomoro. excited to go to office but not bcoz of i miss my work..but definitely i miss my frensss so much.

alhamdulillah..i think i make a gud progress after da op. e’tho i can’t walk as fast as before, but i thank God coz it’s done! i dun hv to think bout it anymore. wut i need to do now is to make sure that i’m taking a gud care of myself. got to reduce my activity.. huhu!! but..if i recall da day i was in da op theatre.. it was among da scariest moment in my life. i’m juz too scared bout hospital. i can’t sleep well at night. when i entered da ot, i saw ppl in blue uniform. tetiba teringat cite grey’s anatomy. hehe! i should been biused by da doc b4 they put in da scope into my back. however, da thing yg cucuk kat tangan tuh was blocked n no one noticed bout it. so, all of them thought i was already unconscious but i WAS NOT!! therefore i cn feel dat thing entering my body. sakit tu Tuhan jek yg tau. i wanted to scream tp suara tak kluar. wut i can remember is i grabbed 1 of da doc’s hand in front of me.. i hold it tightly n aku terus nangis.. only then 1 of them saw me crying n told da head or surgeon that i wasn’t sleep yet. kelam-kabut la dorg nk btolkan tiub kat tgn tuh so da bius will go in my body. tp maybe dorg panic..main cucuk2 jek tangan aku ni. tak dapat belah kiri, duk cucuk belah kanan lak. n at da same time, da surgery was still went on. time tu rasa cam anak patung pon ada kan.. few minutes after that baru la aku cam mamai sket. after da op finished.. da doc came n met my parent. they apologized of wut had happened.. aku dah tak larat time tuh..diam jek n tertido sat. da next day..i went back to jb. mak aii..jalan cam org dlm pantang. x pe..x pe..practice sket2. hahaha!!! for da 1st few days..sakit sgt rasa bile terlebih gerak. erm..tp aku ni plak tak reti duk diam.. sangap sgt rasa duk kat umah tuh. so..u guys name it.. sume citer aku tgk. from morning till midnite. silap2 bley buat drama review. hahah!

last thursday..i went back to da hospital 4 check up. when da doc explained to me.. i kinda shocked. never imagined in my mind.. i was actually hv bleeding spot in my back. maybe bcoz of da injury. n da doc told me i can only recover at least 70%. erm.. no more sports after this. sedih..??? mmg sedih coz i love sports. i love adventures activity. i love doing crazy things. tp.. ini dah ketentuan Dia. aku terima.

erm..i would like to say thank u very very much to all my frens 4 giving me supports. thanx for all da sms-es.. n thanx 4 visiting me at da hospital. u know who u are.. thanx 4 being such a caring fren. hope i will get well soon.. amin.. muacks to all of u!!!